This time last year I remember being super frustrated. The one thing that I wanted to change about the new year was that I wanted to be free from sexual temptation. I wanted to have a pure mind and not feel trapped. I felt frustrated because I thought this goal was not possible. This had been a problem I had faced for years and I thought it was never going away. I thought that I could never change. I felt squashed by my past.
I still wish that some things from my past weren't there. A lot of things actually. Some of them seem too terrible for me to speak of. I wonder if things from my past will ever come back to haunt me. I'm scared. I pray that God will protect me and that He will use all things for good. Even if that past comes back and is used against me, God can make that work for good. It may hurt, but God will be by my side. I pray that He gives me peace to not be defeated by possibility of future calamity. I pray that God will give me peace in the event that something does come up.
