Admitting Wrong

Just a quick update, because I have lots to do today.

Like I said, I was planning to talk to my pastor to give him an update on what was going on. We are close and he believes in me. I didn't want to have him believing that I was doing a good job when I wasn't. Especially since he has trusted  me with ministry in the church and I am a leader under his direction, I thought it would be good to have accountability and honesty. I talked to my pastor yesterday, telling him that there were inappropriate things going on between me and my boyfriend. Not much came from the meeting. I would like to discuss why we are having these issues of not being able to stick with boundaries. Even though I did not receive any wonderful solution to the problem, I do believe it was beneficial to have that talk. Another reason I think it was important for me to have that talk with my pastor is because it gave me the opportunity to admit to another person that I was doing something wrong. Now that I have admitted to doing something wrong, I now have the responsibility to act. I no longer can keep pretending that what I'm doing isn't wrong.

My boyfriend and I will be talking about this also. We will need to continue to set up boundaries and plans to keep them. We need to decide what we will not do. We need to set up a plan on what we will do to make right choices. We will need to decide what we WILL DO with our time together.

I also know that I need to be accountable to my accountability partners. I've been embarrassed to admit my struggle to them. I want them to think well of me.

Prayer:
God, I pray that you help me to make good choices. Help me to not compromise. Help me to be accountable. Help me to not be afraid. Help me to want to seek what is good for me. Help me to push past discomfort. Help me to have relationships of honest.